The New Car

So I let Cory go car shopping without me yesterday and let me tell you how it turned out. First of all Before he went we looks on the website to decide which cars he should look at when he went to the dealer ship.I had him look at a Mazda 3 2006 witch we both really liked from the picture. The only problem was that it didn't have power windows or locks. She I said know. Then he looked at a few other cars that we looked at. He was about to come home with a really nice one that we also both liked. Then right before he had decided on the car, A nice black Mazda 2006 pulled up out of no where. Now i didn't look at this car before. It was not on the website. So The fact that he picked a totally different car then what we were looking at kinda pissed me off. Lets just say that the fact that i wasn't there made the situation not good. So he got the car. Its nice but now we are paying off that and a little from our old car. That's the part that makes me mad. He took the deal when they were only going to pay 9,000 of what was left of the other car. Let me tell you. If I was there that would not of happened. We wouldn't of taken deal and we would of kept the Nissan. Now that fact that is is a Mazda and not a Nissan sucks...Our insurance went up b/c Its not a Nissan. AHHH....Cory is stressing about money now and I am okay but still kinda mad. Now I did not tell him this....so don't go telling on me. Anyway, the car is nice but we owe 22,000 on it....for shit sake. Our payment went up to 385..its is pretty much what we were paying before we refinanced the Nissan with our bank. The insurance is 185 now and that is what we were paying with our old car that Cory had when we first got marred. With everything going up and all the bills we will have 650 left over in the bank every month. That's not that bad..but still Cory stresses. Anyway, the new car is smaller then the Nissan even though Cory doesn't think so. Its a nice car and has low mileage...Whatever makes Cory feel more safe I guess. I guess next time I will go with him....AHHHH I wonder if we could trade it in for a Nissan...You know, go back and say oh, we don't want this car now...can we get another one. I might talk to Cory about it. I'll post pictues of it tomorrow....

Anyway, So I have my anatomy final today. last night I was freaking the hell out... But I'm better today. I have been studying a lot sense that night, and i almost pulled an all nighter to study...But i decided to go to bed. Well wish me luck...I hope I pass.

Busy woman

No I have not fallen off the face of the earth. I have been busy getting ready for Christmas and also studding for my finals for school. I’m almost done with all of them. I have one today for my massage class. I’m not too worried about that one. But tomorrow is a different story. I have my Anatomy final and I am stressing, man am I stressing. I have tried to study, over and over again. It’s not that easy when the little one wants me all the time. She is sick right now and when she is sick she is clingy. You all moms out there….you know how it goes. Anyway, it’s snowing again. What a surprise there. School is good other then the fact that I hate Anatomy. We are done with school on Wednesday and we don’t go back tell the 21 of January. Fun stuff. Now I’m going to be board all day.

Chantelle is great, other than the fact that she has a cold and is still not walking. I don’t know if it’s just me, but she seems a little slow to me. When do they start understanding what I am talking about? I want her to be to the stage where I don’t have to fight her to get dressed…to the stage where she can help me get her dressed…My niece is to that stage and she is only 15 months old. I have friends who have kids younger than mine that are already walking and sleeping in a real bed. Help me out here guys. I need my kid to be just a little faster. I’m not sure if it’s the way I am razing her or if she just needs time. But I want her to grow faster. I want her to start walking…and I really want her to stop fighting me when I try to get her dressed. Anyway, she finally figured out how to get in the cabinets…so now I have to go buy lucks for them. Oh yeah, I tried to find a lock for the toilet but freaking Wal-mart didn’t have them. Anyway, if anyone out there has some advice for me...by all means send it my way.
I guess that’s all for now. I really need to start studding before Chantelle wakes up. I’ll try to keep you all posted on her progression and I’ll let ya all know if I passed my anatomy final. Bye for now.

Happy Holidays

Twilight sucks

I cannot even begin to tell you how bad the movie was. It was crap and I am so mad about it. Everyone had high expectations for this movie and they shouldn’t have. It was the worst movie I have ever seen. Maybe that’s just b/c I have read the books. But I was so disappointed I wish to God that is was all a dream b/c there is no way that betrays Twilight at all. It shouldn’t even get a star in my book. I love Stephanie Meyer but why woman would you let them destroy the move and books like that. I think they should re make it with a different Cast and a different Director. Can Harry Potter please come out so I can was away this memories of a love story in a book that was so ripped apart by the movies. I am so disappointed and so sad that I let myself get so excited about the movie. I had high hopes for the movie but my hopes were shred apart at the begging of the movie. And it only got worse from there. Why Oh Why Stephanie. Why would you let them release that? Oh Wake me up and tell me this is a dream.

Waking up Confused

Okay so every now and then I wake up in the middle of the night all confused I get out of bed and look around like I am looking for someone. Its kinda weird b/c Everyone who should be home is home. Its like I am looking for a ghost or something. Someone who isn't there. Someone who is missing. "Is someone telling me something?" That question always seems to come up when I wake up in the morning. Its like We are missing a part of our family or something. Maybe someone is missing. Maybe We are not done having baby's or something. I don't know, but its kinda weird. Anyway, Waking up during the middle of the night is kinda getting old. Oh well, what can yeah do. What do you guys think about it. Is God telling me that my family is not complete? Blah..to much thinking this early in the morning.

So yeah..Is 8:30 and I am so tired. I really should get out of bed and get ready for the day. I was thinking about taking a walk..maybe getting a hair cut. Blah...So tired and now Chantelle is waking up. Guess I wont be going back to bed. It looks like its going to be a nice day.

Oh my heck...I am so excited about going to Twilight on Thursday and so Excited to go to Vegas...Yay, I want it to be Thursday already. Anyway, I think maybe its time to get out of bed and shower. I guess that's all for now. I can't think of anything to write and I don't want to write on about nothing. Bye...

Thanksgiving in Vegas and NKOTB

Okay so instead of going to my moms for Thanksgiving this year, Cory and I decided we wanted to go to Vegas with his mom and dad. We have to take Chantelle which limits us from Gambeling..But that's not really a bad thing. So As most of you may know. Phantom of the Opera is playing there and I told Cory that if we are going to Vegas I am dragging him to see that and he has no say in the matter. So we bought the tickets for that today and we Reserved our room at ex Caliber. So Excited to go see Phantom. So I guess we are going to just go to a buffet for thanksgiving with I am totally fine with. I think Chantelle will like all the lights in Vegas. I'm hoping she has fun to. So I will be sure to take my Camera and take lots of pictures of our trip.So

As most of you may know I when to the NKOTB concert with my sisters on Saturday and it was a lot of fun. Karilynn was really funny. Whitney went with us so that means that non of the ladies could flash the boys. That's okay though...its not like any of us would anyway. (Well maybe Kari, she was kinda crazy..lol) Anyway, I got some pictures but not very many b/c my freaking camera died. So here they are. Here is our blast from the past.

NKOTB...I Only got two picutes

Twilighters

So it is almost time for the movie to play in theaters. I woke up at 6 in the morning and could not stop thinking about it. So I got on the Internet and I got 2 tickets to see it at 12:40am on Thursday. Me and my mommy are going. I am trying to get my sisters to come to. I really want them to..so go buy your tickets before its to late. Jordan Landing girls. Anyway, I can not wait to see it. I love Twilight.

So Chantelle was really sick with that flue that has been going around. She was pooping non-stop and it was so sad. She would not eat anything and she was just miserable. So she is better now...but i can feel myself getting it for sure. We mothers share everything with our children. Not looking forward to being sick to be frank with ya. Oh well, what can ya do.

So Tomorrow is New Kids On The Block with my sisters. So excited. I love going out with my sisters and having fun. I don't get to do that very much because I live in West Valley and it sucks. So yeah, anytime i have a chance to hang out with my sisters I'm going to take it. Yay for New Kids.....

Cory is at work right now, He works tomorrow to. It sucks but what can ya do. I guess that's all for now. I really do need to start cleaning my house. See y'all later.

A Lot Has Happened

So a lot of things have happened this last week. My neighbor upstairs flooded his kitchen and it leaked down into my kitchen. Now at first we thought there wasn't that much water but then the next day I moved my couch and there was a hell of a lot of water on my carpet. So they brought in fans and it was almost dry in 3 days...then I ran my dishwasher and the carpet was we again. so I told the Handy man(yes I am calling him the hand man for a reason) he cam and checked it. he thought it was the garbage disposal...so he replaced that, Witch it really could of been because the tub that connects the dishwasher to the garbage disposal was really loss. Anyway, he replaced it and then he found a crack in the pips. They had to take a big chunk out of the wall to replace it. Let me remind you. We still have the freaking fans here. They have been her for almost to weeks now. So the man....handyman is coming today to fix the whole in the wall and i/m hoping that the carpet guys tell me today that the fans can leave so I can put my living room back together. That's what been going on in the house.

Okay, so i have been was sick and I am still not over it. It freaking sucks b/c all I want to do is sleep all the time. I can't really do that b/c I have school and a little munchkin that wont let me. She is all about mommy leas days and i think its b/c that other Mahler is braking throw. She doesn't seem to have fever at all but she does seem cranky. So because i have been sick. I have not been sleeping well at all. So when i get up in the morning its around 6. Cory isn't even up this early. It freaking sucks. Anyway, I am really tired of being sick and I just want to be healthy again. Oh by the way. We all have health insurance now...YaY.

Okay so Cory/s Company got laid of. so another company took over. This is a good thing because Cory got a 2 dollar raise. That will help us out a little more wail I am in school. We are glad about that, but you all know Cory, he is still being a Taite ass about it. Anyway. I am up waiting for the handyman to come and fix the wall. He seems to get here around 8:45ish. Bye for now Everyone.

Happy Birthday To Me

So today is my 23rd birthday. Its kinda crazy that I am 23 now. That is still young but pretty soon I will be 25 and half way to 50....ahhhh. Anyway, I don't really have much planed for today. Cory is taking me to Chilli's for dinner and I think Karilynn and I are going to lunch. Yay, For my birthday.

Okay so Chantelle seems to be doing much better. Cory is not sick anymore. I am fine...but I still don't really have a voice. I sound funny when I talk. Anyway, Me and Chantelle are just hanging out watching barney and friends. Well we were..now we are listening to music and she is dancing. She is so cute.

Anyway, The girls and I are going Clubbing on Friday for mine and Stephine's birthday....I am so excited. I love going out with the girls and dancing. Anyway, That's all I have to say I guess. Don't really know what else to write

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

The Sick Family

Okay so Chantelle as been running a fever for the last 3 days and its b/c she is getting her 1 year old molars in. Poor Boo. She is very happy most of the time though. So we have just been watching her and giving her Tylenol when she needs it. The only thing is, is that she will not eat. This sucks b/c right now we are in the proses of getting her off formula and bottles. But formula is all she will really take right now. So I guess we will have to wait it out and just start all over when she is not sick anymore.

So We went to Lagoon yesterday. It was alright. Chantelle hung out with Grandma Atwood all day, They just walked around and looked at everything and everyone. Any time I came around though..she would get mad b/c she wanted me. Anyway, I took her on the carousel. She wasn't sure at first, but then she got all excited and clapped and yelled. She drooled a lot but that's b/c she is getting them molars.

Anyway, We got home last night and Cory was running a fever. He was freezing and had no strength to move or do anything. I was fine...Until I woke up today. I am now sick along with Cory and Chantelle. We are just a sick little bunch of Atwoods. Anyway, My mom has Chantelle right now so Cory and I can get some rest. I hope she is doing okay. That's all for now. I'm going to go take a bath.

Oh, by the way, my 23rd birthday is on Tuesday.

Up Way To Early

Okay so I got up at 7 the smorning b/c Chantelle woke up. She went back to bed but Cory got up for work and was ranting a raving about World of War Craft not working or something. So gay. Anyway, I was thinking about going back to bed but I know that if i do Chantelle will wake up. I am so dang tired right now.

Okay so We are going to be going to Lagoon on Saturday if it is warm enough. I am excited but I am also not excited b.c I know for a fact that if Chantelle does not get a nap in at all that day, she will not be a happy camper. So yeah, I'm kinda feeling her pain to be honest with you. I know being outside makes me tired. I am excited about going but no about how Chantelle will be.

School is good. I have a test in Anatomy today...I really should be studying right now but i am just to tired. Not so sure about anatomy yet. Still have to find a way to understand everything and pass the test. So yeah, school is good and i am loving i more and more. I love the hands on stuff but am still getting used to working with men.

Anyway, I have decided to try and blog a lot more because its nice to get on and talk about whats going on and all that jazz. Its just hard trying to find stuff to write. Okay I think I'm done for today. I can't think of anything else to write right now so until next time.

The Front Passenger side Tier

The front passenger side tier keeps going flat and we have no money to fix it....so today Cory got up and it was way flat from the cold. so when he got to work it was even worse...He just called me and told me he has to replace it today, which is not good b/c that means he has to put it on the credit card. We already don't have much money and now we have to replace the tier. For thous of you who don't know...there is a nail in the tier and it can not be patched b/c of where it is at. Gay....I hate money, The whole world revolves around it and it is so gay. Stinking Money.

Me and Chantelle are just sitting here chillin. We are watching Barney and Friends. Well she was watching it...Now so she talking to herself...She is so cute. She makes me so Happy. I love my little love bug.

I have come to the conclusion hat I think Mom (my mom) should make a blog spot...Anyway, Mom, Make one.... Anyway, I am going to go now. I have to feed Chantelle some food. Bye for now.

birthday Party For Chantelle!!!

Okay so Chantelles birhday was lots off fun..except for the fact that she was a cranky bug for most of the day before her party. Oh well, What can ya do. Anyway, Here are some pictres of it. She had such a fun time making a mess of that cake.

My favorit picture ever.


She loved that cake.


Fun happy times.


She killed that cake for sure.

Chantelle's Birthday

Okay, so today my little love bug turns 1 year old. This makes me sad b/c before I know it, she will be talking back and telling me she hates me. I can totally wait for that. Her turning one really makes me want another baby. Cory says we can’t have one tell we are financially stable, but that could never happen. I guess I can wait but we are having one after she is potty drained. Anyway, for her birthday, (as most of you already know). We are having cake and ice cream and Grandma Bartlett’s house on Sunday, (the twelfth). We are not doing anything today b/c I have school.

Okay so I had to take Chantelle to the doctor today for her 12 month check up. Not fun for her. She had to get four shots, my poor baby girl. 4 shots on her birthday, what kind of world is this. It’s okay though, she won’t remember it. Anyway, the doctor said I have to get her off bottles b/c it is bad for her teeth. This is going to be hard b/c she goes to bed with one. I am thinking I should start today, but I really don’t want to do that to her on her birthday. I would just feel so bad. Anyway, I made myself some lunch and it getting cold b/c I’m writing this, so I am going to go. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHATELLE!!

How school is

So I am having fun going to school. It gets me out of the house and makes me feel like I am not wasting my life by working at Wal-mart. It’s funny, Cory always says, I don’t want you to go to school. He used to say that about me going to work to, but with work every time he would say that I would tell try and make up an excuse not to go. With school I say, “Well honey I’m sorry, but I have to go to school, and I want to.” I love wanting to do something.
So I am having a little trouble with Anatomy. It’s a tough class and it’s hard for me to get everything at once. I just have to work a little harder than everyone else in class, which is fine. It won’t kill me to work a little harder to make it to my goal.
I am taking this success class and it is helping me to feel better about myself and to know that I can do anything if I just put my mined in the right setting. So that’s what I am doing. I am telling myself I can do it and that I will not fail and for some reason that is making everything else (anatomy) not seem so hard. That was my goal. Oh they also have this program where if I need a tutor I got one for free. I may just use that to my advantage. Its nice that they have that for us.
I really can’t wait for the hands on stuff. I have this other class where you go into the clinic/lab (that’s where all the tables are) and we do a meditating thing to get us in the right mind frame. It is freaking sweet and I love it. It helps me sleep at night. I am thinking of trying it on Cory to make him less stressed and help him sleep better.
Olay, So Cory is stressing me out about money and its making me think about dropping school and being miserable for the rest of my life. He tells me he won’t let me drop out and that he will just have to get a second job. He doesn’t really need to get a second job; we just both need to be careful on spending money for the next year, Only the essentials. Anyway, that’s it for now. I have to feed Chantelle. By the way, She is almost ONE...Freaking crazy, My baby is a toddler now. It goes by way to fast.

School

So I decided that working for Wal-Mart was not making me happy. I was depressed all the time and hated my life. I was struggling with being happy. Cory and I sat down to deicide other things I could do to be happy. We both decided that my quitting Wal-Mart was the best thing for me. So I quit and he said, “Okay, time to decide what you are going to do now.” So I thought and pondered that thought for about a day. They I said, “You know what I don’t want to work in retell for the react of my life.” And I did something about it. I looked up schools and sent in information letting them know that I was interested in going to school with them to studied Massage Thereby. The first school to call me was Eagle Gate Collage. The lady and I talked for about 45 minutes and she was so enthusiastic and nice. She asked me questions and answered mine as well. The next school to call me was Utah College of Massage Therapy. This man did not seem enthusiastic at all and he seemed like he was just trying to dog on the other school that I was interested in. So I went with Eagle Gate. I went and took a tour, Talked about finances and grants. We wanted to see if we qualified for on at all. Sure enough we do qualify. So I took the test to see if I could get in. You have to get a 130 to get in to the program. I got a 123…7 Questions under. So we scheduled me to come in the next day to take it again. Everyone thought I would pass but I didn’t think I would. So I went home and brushed up on math. Yesterday I went back to the school and took the test. I got a 134…..YaY, I passes I get to go to school. I start September 29th and I am way excited about it. I cannot wait to get my career and to make good money for myself and for my family. I know for sure that me going to school and doing what I want in the end is going to make me a lot happier. This is going to help me feel better about myself and I couldn’t ask for more.

The Twilight Saga

I am such a Twilighter its gay. I swear to you.. I am totally into these books though. It’s so nice to read something that I am so into. I am getting anxious for Saturday to get here…even though I might not get to read Breaking Dawn tell Sunday. I work all day Saturday. Anyway, I’m sure all my sisters think I am so gay for being so upsets with Stephanie Meyer and The Twilight Saga. Don’t make fun of me for something I love you meanie buts. I can’t wait tell the movie’s to come out so I can add them to my DVD collection. Cory has no say in it at all….And he already knows that he is going to be dragged to the movies with me. YaY….Anyway, Yep….I love the books…that’s all I Have to say.

here

Okay, so I know it has been a wail but I am here and writing now. So a lot has happened. I am working at Wal-Mart again…Yay…Not. My little nephew baby Colton Was sent to the hospital…but I’m sure you all know that by now. He is home. My Dad however, not so good. He went to the hospital again and had to have something put in him to help him…I don’t really get it. Anyway I went and saw him yesterday and he can’t even sit down without is heart feeling like it is going to explode. He has to stand in order for is heart to now go crazy. He looks like he is in pain (because he is) and it hurts me. I just want him to get better. I am scared he is not going to live much longer, the way his heart wants to give up and all. I am worried.

Chantelle is crazy, as always. She crawls everywhere, and pulls my DVDs off the shelf all the time. She talks really lowed and pinches really hard. She had her nine month checkup and the doctor said I need to start feeding her more soled food b/c the formula is not going to fill her up much longer. I know she is right but I really am just scared that my baby will chock. I need to get past that and feed her more of the stuff that we eat…the problem with that is she hates everything. All she wants is carrots. I can’t get her to eat anything we like. It’s frustrating as hell. I’m always saying to her, “you need to eat this baby, it’s good for you.” She doesn’t get it. (How could she, she’s a baby.) She is cute and getting big. I love my little blue eyed red head.
So Cory and I went out to dinner last night at this place called Happy Soma…I really liked it…but

Cory was not to impressed. Looks like we wont be going there again. Oh well. We went with Cory’s friend Mike…He just got home from Iraq…and to my surprise, he did not drive me crazy, he drove Cory crazy. Cory told me that mike was bugging him and that mike is never going to grow up and that he can see him becoming an alcoholic. Sad, I hope that doesn’t happen. Anyway. I am off now. So there I posted a new blog…now stop making fun of me about the whole mate nets guy thing.

Hello Everyone

Okay so we are all moved into our new apartment. We also have internet and Cable. Yay for cable b/c now I get to watch the primer of So You Think You Can Dance tonight. Okay so I have to get a job now…Bummer…. Oh well…It will get me out of the house right. So life is pretty good right at the moment. Chantelle is now starting to say Dadda today. I was showing her how to do it yesterday. She almost has it. So the night we moved in we took a shower and the hot water only lasted for about 3 minutes. So then the next day we took another shower. And once again it only lasted for 3 minutes. So I called the landlord and she had the mate nets guy come and put in a new water heater. Now it works fine. We took a shower last night and for the first time in several days I got to wash my hair. Okay so I got everything all set up and it’s cute. All of you that can come see it….please do. Anyway, I’m going to go eat some breakfast name. It’s about that time…Talk at all ya’all later. Piece Out.

We Got it

So we got the apartment and we move in on the 15th

Apartments

Okay so that one apartment…we didn’t get but we are waiting to get this other one and we will find out today if we got it. It’s a $99 deposit and it is $630 a month. I think we will be getting it but at the same time I am worried that we won’t get it. All I can do is pray right. So I am calling the ladies today to see if we got it or not. She said the latest we would move in is June first. So anyway, the apartment is freaking big as heck. It has 2 bedrooms and 1/1.2 bath. Its a lot bigger then the other one we looked at and a lot cheaper to. I am getting really excited to move out of my moms and have my own home to decorate and love and cook in. I can not wait.

Anyway, Chantelle is going to be 7 months on Thursday (8th) and she has two teeth now. She is so cute. She is not crawling yet but she is getting close. I just keep telling myself, “any day now.” She is getting so big and looking more and more like her dad every day, witch I don’t mind b/c he is a cute guy. Anyway, she is getting mad so I better go. Bye for now.

I Don't Know What To Do Anymore.

Okay so Chantelle does not sleep through the night anymore. I swear she wakes up at least 4 times a night now. I don't know how to get her to sleep through the night. If I let her cry she cries for about 2 hours and then I just get up. Is so hard...I don't know what to do. Help me. Give me some pointers please. I can't go without sleep anymore. Grrr. I am so tired all the time. Someone give me some advice. I mean I feed her food before bed. I give her a bath before bed. I do everything you can think of and she still wont sleep. I don't know what else to do for her, and I can't take it anymore. If anyone has any advice please share. I am so ready for her to just sleep at night.

Its About Danm Time!!

I know what your thinking, why haven't I been on to post blogs in a wail. Hey I told you all I was really bad at posting blogs every day. Anyway, So here is a little of whats going on in my life right now. I found these really nice apartments in Murray that I am hoping are still available. I am hopefully going to get one by the end of the day. And then Cory, Chantelle, and I will be moving there withing a few weeks. That's what we are hoping for anyways. Anyway, Chantelle is good. She is still not sitting up all by her self yet but she rolls everywhere. The sooner we get our own place the better..b/c they she can roll where ever she wants and not roll down the stares. Anyway, Karilynn took me to to get a couch yesterday (Thank you Kari) It was $45.00 and it came with a foot rest as well. Its a nice couch. I can't wait to put it in my apartment. That's if we get it. I am really hoping we do. We really need to move so we stop buying fast food. So unhealthy for us. Anyway, Then Chantelle will have her own room. Can't wait tell then. Okay so I have no clue what to write, so this is going to be a small blog. Well at least i wrote something right. Anyway, bye for now.

The Ring

Okay so today Chantelle turned 4 months, (well tecnicly it was yesterday). You know everyone always says they grow up fast but it doesn't seem that way to me. I feel like its taking forever...but maybe thats just beacuse she still isn't sleeping through the night. But man is she cute. She is smileing and talking all the time. She's still not sitting up by herself or rolling over from her back to her tummy. When do they usaly start doing that? Anyway, I take her to get more shots on monday(the 11th). Once again I will not be in the room. So her daddy will be in there with her. I just can't bear to see them stick a needle in her. It will make me cry. One day i'll stay in the room. Anyway, She is sick right now...So sleeping is kind of not happening for me or her. I hate it when she doesn't sleep. So yep, she is 4 months.

Okay so we finaly got our taxes doen. Turns out I had the last pay stub that we needed to get them done, so my sister did them for us. THANK YOU KARILYNN! So we are getting a good amout back. Guess where thats going...We are paying most of our credit card off and yes its true...I am finaly getting my wedding ring. I will be getting it on the 27th....Thats when it will be done. And with the rest of the money...well thats going into savings..for a downpayment on a apartment and moving... Deppends on where it is we will move that is. Cory is thinking about getting a new computer...but we are still talking about that. So this year my valintiens presnt is my ring. I'm just fine with that. I can't wait to get it. YAY for my ring. I'm o freaking excited.

So, Cory is at work and I am sitting in my room with my hair in a towl (i just showered) atemting to watch chickin little. Chantelle is sleeping, for now that is. I hope she sleeps better then she did last night. I hope i sleep better then I did last night. I really need the sleep. I'm starting to get sick. Okay so Tomorrow is the big family party. Its going to be loud. We are going to eat pizza and cake. YAY....Man I want to see that ring on my finger. waiting is so hard. Anyway, I guess thats all for now. For one, I can't think of anything else to write and for another...my head is starting to ich in this towl. Bye for now everyone. On and did I mention that I love tax returns.

So I desided that I am really bad at doing this blog. I need to do one every day in order to be happy about it...but I can't think of crap to write. Anyway, it is 12:30 in the morning and the baby is starting to wake up....this is bad...I want to go to bed soon and there i know way she is going ot go back to bed easy. Anyway, Cory and I are still waiting on is last W-2 to come in the mail....We are getting kind of mad about it b/c everyone else in my family that worked for this company has goten it but cory...or they at least know why they haven't gotten it. We however have no clue whats going on. We really need our tax reaturn so that we can put it in saving so that we get enough to make a disition as to what we want to do. ehhh.....I have to get the baby, hold that thought. okay...so anyway, I am just sitting in my room being untired. The baby is sleeping agian witch means I should sleep wail I still have the chance.

Cory is at work, like always. I hate him working graveyard.(why do they call it that?) But then again, I am used to sleeping alone...I had to be with him being in the Military and all. I just miss him at night time. But what can I do. He needs to work and so do I. So anyways, Chantelle is going to be 4 months on Friday. She is getting so big and so freaking cute. She talks all the time now. Not real words to us of corse...but she knows what shes saying. She doesn't reall seem like she is getting taller but she is definitly startng to waigh more. anway...I guess i'm just going to go to bed now. I have know clue what to write..Nothing exciting ever happens to me....Maybe one day I will write about something more interesting. Bye for now.

Hello, Hello, Hello.

So I realise I have not blogged on this for a wail...I guess that makes me a bad blogger. I am sitting at home with the husband and the baby...Isn't that a life. I do have to go to work soon though. YaY for work...not. Anyways, My boobs are not giving milk anymore so Chantelle is oafishly eating only formula now....So Cory and I got masks for when its time to change a stinky diaper...I don't want to throw up again...Oh yeah....she made me throw up by the way, if you didn't already know that.Is it wrong to need to wear a mask when changing my baby? If it is...well then keep it to yourself...I don't want to know what you think..I don't need your criticism.

Anyway, nothing new going on with us. yes we are still living with my mom...we have been talking about Cory going back into the Marines and going back to Cali, but He says he has a bad feeling about it so I'm not sure if he is going to reenlist yet. I guess we will just have to see. Chantelle will be 4 months on the 8th of February. she is getting bigger. Seems more heavy then before now. I think its from all that formula. she eats about 8 ounces ever feeding now. She is a freaking Piggie. Its okay though. Whatever make her happy right. She is sitting right next to me in her bouncer.

So, I have come to the conclusion that I lobe being a mommy. I wasn't to sure at first...what with all the not sleeping and always crying. In the end when I see that cute little girl smile at me it makes it all worth it. I still don't sleep through the night though. Cory says I am really cranky all the time...You wonder why.... anyway, I guess that all for now being how I can't think of anything to write.

Things are stating to look up

Where to begin? Chantelle is asleep in her crib and Cory is at work. I am sitting at home in my room attempting to watch Transformers but got preoccupied by the computer, not a shocker there. Anyway, my day today was filed with sleep baby meeting at work and laundry. It’s about time I do the laundry because I was sure slacking on that. Anyway, Thinks are starting to look up. I recently sent a letter to my dear sweet Cory about how I was feeling and how I feel he needs to fix a few things. He owned up to some stuff and has agreed to try. I know in my sister’s words, “trying isn’t good enough” but sense he has agreed to get on medication the trying is good enough for me. For now anyway. I believe that if he gets put on meds there will be no trying…he will change and it will be for the better. All I can say is this. “it takes a strong man to admit that he needs to change and get help.”

Olly, (our dog) seems to be doing better. By means, she just so happen to chew the living crap out of one of my moms pitchers for witch we will be replacing for sure. I am hoping that she stay’s feeling better because her doing the pooping in the sun room made the whole house smell like shit and I would hate for it to smell like that again. I just want her to feel better and to be healthy. We still want to find her a better home by the way, so if anyone who is reading this is interested or who knows of someone who would want a dog to let me know.

Things are I think getting better at Wal-Mart. My hours should be going but by week 53, so I was told. Looks like I might not have to look for a new job after all. YaY…I really don’t want to learn something new if I don’t have to. I know that’s a bit lazy but come on, starting a new job just freaking sucks. I guess we will see what my schedule is for week 53 on Monday when I go in for work. Hopefully it is better then it has been. Anyway, my back hurts like hell right now so I am going to end this blog and go lay down for a little wail…Who knows; maybe I’ll just go to bed. Bye for now.

I'm Going Crazy

Okay, so sorry I didn’t blog yesterday. I got a little tied up with the sick Chantelle. She has a cold and a cough. Poor thing, I have to us the suck bulb on her and she hates that thing. She is sitting in her swing right now. She is getting mad at me because I am not giving her attention. She needs to go back to bed considering she didn’t sleep at all last night. I just love them nights when I’m up all night with here. Anyway, Cory and I are both not feeling good…I think it has to do with our dog being sick. We just found out that she has Poarvo. I have no idea how to spell that. In case you all don’t know what that is. It is just like the flow that we get except dogs have a more likely chance of dying from it then we do. Its really grouse because she has really runny poop and through up. Cory cleans it up though, not me. Anyway, I know that’s kind of disgusting to put in my blog so I am just going to end the whole thing about that there.

I think that the breast feeding has reached its peek. I think from now on I am just going to pump it all…She really wont take me nipple. I even tried to change the latch to see if that would help and it didn’t. I mean, I still don’t want to give up but I feel like she isn’t getting what she needs from me. I’ll keep trying to give her the poop at night time though. She seems to stay on better when she is tired. That’s weird I know. What can you do? I just want her to get enough food. So if I have to keep her on the formula I will. Whatever makes her happy.

Okay, So I am thinking I will be looking for a new job here soon. Wal-mart freaking blows and I can’t keep getting these crappie hours like I am. We really need the money. Cory and I really want to get out of my parents house by March, and we can’t do that with me getting only 8 hours a week. I think that if I am for sure switching to formula that I will work full time. I haven’t decided yet so don’t go telling Cory. Okay so I have to go now b/c the baby is not being good. Bye for now I guess.

Okay here it goes

Okay so I made the dissection to make a blogspot because everyone in my family has one. I figured why not…I mean this is the one thing that I know everyone in my family will look at. Mine as well have something for them to read. Its keeping up with posting blogs is what’s going to be the trouble. Let me just warn you all a head of time. I am a slacker at writing things. This being because my mind goes blank from time to time and I can’t think of anything to write down.

Okay so here it all goes. As you all know I am married and have a beautiful baby girl named Chantelle, (witch by the way is 3 months today). She is making weird noises in her swing right now. Cory (my husband) is sleeping in the next room. He works graveyard (why on earth do they call it that?). I work at Wal-Mart, I hate it. It’s not really my ideal job if you know what I’m saying. I would much rather go to school to become a massage therapist. But our goal right now is to save up and move out and get our own place. That’s what our plan is.

So Chantelle is sleeping through the night, witch is nice except for the fact that I have to give her a bath before she will go to bed. I don’t like this because it’s drying out her skin. She is a little cutie. So the breast feeding is kind of going south. I think she is going though a growth spurt because if my milk isn’t coming to her liking of speed she gets pissed and latches off. It’s making me mad because she isn’t getting enough food. I just want her to be healthy and eat enough. Anyway, I don’t know what I should do. I’m still trying though. Well, I can’t really thing of anything else to write at this point. So I guess that’s all for now.